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Transitions

2006-07-08T09:05:00.000-07:00

Please take a moment to send good happy healing thoughts to my past place of employment. Due to a State budget cut and my state giving our work to a different states company--- 1/3 of the company had to part ways 6/30/06. This is a picture of the support staff for SM dept of my company.

We had become a disfunctional little family. Yes, we weren't perfect but we tried. I miss you all.
That last day was horrible. Knowing for so long was a double edged sword. Yes, it gave me a chance to find a new job, but I still had to go to work knowing it was over. As a good little worker bee--- I just picked up the shattered pieces and did what I could.
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I've started up as a teacher assistant for a local elementary school. So far so good. I think this could be alittle career change, but we'll wait to see. I go between the 3 third grade teachers. Very supportive school staff, teachers and principle. AND it still gives me time to do music.
:-)

All you have to do it just...

2006-04-09T07:38:00.000-07:00

Jump over the moon.
I love this picture.
Not much to say.
Just another day in paradise.
the leaves are budding
the birdes cheaping away

4/13/06

2006-02-26T10:53:00.000-08:00

i fought the law, and....

well, we'll find out april 13th in raleigh,nc.

yes, i got a ticket.
i went the wrong way down a one way street.
very scary
horns honking
lights flashing
the boys in blue
flashlights in my face
me freaking out
i came to an intersection where i had a stop sign.
i looked ahead
they had a stop sign
i looked right
no one
i looked left and saw a "stop sign"
---with vehicals way down the street
so my right of way, right?
i got there first?.!
so my friend kevin said turn into the lot
so it looked like turning left would be easiest
<<>
because the left part of this intersection was a one way
sh*t!

i messed up.
yes, i turned down the wrong way
the one way is clearily marked if you know the area---sort of
but i had never been there
it was dark
heavy traffic
i was conviced this was a 4-way stop
so i turned left into the wide right lane to turn into the parking lot on the corner

the cop was doing a DUI check because this was a bar district at 11pm
no i had just finished a concert so no drinking was involved
just misperception

funny thing the next day i went back to see what i did and see what the intersection was like in the broad daylight
well i almost got hit by a car
must be a very clear intersection
hmmm but i'm just a girl driver, right.

so now since i do not "know anybody" i have the choice of going all the way back to raleigh
to go to court
or hiring a lawyer

to me hiring a lawyer means your guilty but can afford to pay your way out.
-----------you know this doesn't make a do right girl feel good

oy, what's a girl to do in this crazy crazy world???
insurence sucks, what a racket
almost as bad as health insurence...how can they sleep at night
it costs a bundle to have but if you use it you get charged more as a company...

Hugs
and peace out

dream machine

2006-02-11T12:17:00.000-08:00

Dear Ford,

I am a Michigander who came from a Ford family who proudly drove an American car, but I'm sorry to say that you did not treat me well and my car was falling apart---it was not realible ---didn't really get good gas milage---the dealership was shady...with all that in mind I test drove a Honda. What a great car. Hello sexy sexy car. Hmmm CD player in the car finally. I felt it would be vindictive to send a post card with me in front of my sexy sexy Honda to Ford saying goodbye...So I Blogged it instead.

Goodbye Ford...
Hello Honda.

side note

2005-12-11T14:18:00.000-08:00

I have to say I love the picture he chose for the website but it does look like he's about to harpoon someone say maybe a viola player. HA HA HA does it ever get old to tease viola players. Their too cute.

Asheville Symphony

2005-12-11T14:13:00.000-08:00

http://www.ashevillesymphony.org/index.html

The new artistic director Daniel Meyer is a great thing for the Asheville Symphony. He's the kind of conductor that gives you the room to have creative freedom, but also he let's you know in a positive way what he wants. Such a treat to work with him!

Bassoon-y news

2005-12-01T13:52:00.000-08:00

http://www.mhc.edu/music/profiles.asp

As of January 1st I'll officially be the adjunct bassoon professor at Mars Hill University. I got to teach a bassoon method class today. Such a great feeling to see a students eyes get what your saying.

:-)

Sloth and Glutton

2005-11-27T09:03:00.000-08:00

HAPPY TURKEY DAY!

Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday. It is a day without gift pressure/expectation and all that is expected of this fine holiday is to eat yourself silly and take a nap.

What a great day.
And a State holiday...
I got paid to do that.
Thank you.
And thank you M. and A. for having us over for the turkey day. BURP!

White Sangaria recipe:
Bottle of Chard.
Bottle of Sav Blanc.
1/4 cup sugar
liberal helping of your fav brandy or liquor.
2 orange, 2 lemon, 2 lime
....use the juice of one of the fruits and slice up the other for in the mix.
....when serving add some of your favorite tonic water
and enjoy

Dangerous group!

2005-11-16T14:32:00.000-08:00

I believe that faith is a wonderfull personal experience, and that you should try and be the best person that your able to be. With the understanding that there are alot of people in the world...give them the room to live their lives.

Exodious:
If you have not heard of this group than be afraid.
There is a group called Exodious that is going to areas they believe to be sinful and getting their "memebers" into positions of governmental power to push through their agenda. Basically go to a town ---change the laws to their beliefs ---and leave like a swarm of locusts----then leave to the next sin city.

****I think the government should put them away for conspiracy to over throw the government.****

It's time to stand up and stop these people. Whatever happened to separation of church and state. We have got to fight this movement!!!! Hey Exodious if you believe these people are so bad take a good hard look in the mirror before you judge another persons way of life. Why not try to help yourself, try and help the community you actually live in. This group is not vested in your community. They will try and change you and leave.
Who are they to say what is sinful?

I cannot tell a lie...Nothing Butt

2005-11-13T14:48:00.000-08:00

the truth....

I have a dream.
I want to ride a motorcycle to the opera.
simple enough,
but I do not have a motorcycle
yet.

And since it's my dream I want to ride my big ol' rumbley Harley to some wonderfully tragic opera like La Bohem or anything Pucinni.

I like the contrast/conflict of the refined society of the mainstream upper class elite meeting or maybe even coexisting with the rebel or outside the mainstream that the motorcycle can represent. That dream was passed onto me from a Latvian flute player so I take the charge and will see this thru. So please help me realize this dream and give to my dream of becoming the opera motorcycle bassoonist....Zooooooooooooooom

Love to you all,
fur

the perfect day

2005-11-11T14:14:00.000-08:00

Today was as close to a perfect day as it gets....

the sun shining...
the glorious fall day were you can just wear a light jacket and tromp on pretty pretty leaves.... the smell in the air----the best temperature
Also this is the day that you can really gloat that you are a State employee. HAHAHAHA I was payed today to do nothing. YEAH Government holidays. You name the day and make it a state holiday and I'll celebrate it. Hip hip horray!

I have some proposed state holidays:
"Sleep in day"
"Naked day...except when cooking....sounds romantic but hot oil on your naked self---bad.
"Mental health day"
"sloth day"
O.k so these are all pretty much the same things. You give it a try let me know your ideas for a state or national holiday....!

I slept in, I went to lunch with my love, I had coffee and a fab. dessert at the Paris Bakery.

----Have you all ever had the kind of day were the world just stops for a second it's soo great. But then you find yourself thinking in the back of your head "so what will mess this day up."
Well today that was that my mom is in the hospital. I called my step dad to wish him a happy veterans day ....since he was a navy sea bee.----and I found out that my mom is in the hospital. So please if your reading this send my mom good thoughts. thank you.

auditions

2005-11-09T17:57:00.000-08:00

to the audition process
thatwasthefastesttwentysecondsofmylife
next
one finger slipped
in the first twenty seconds
another person did not
how can they really know me in twenty seconds
next
it’s nice work if you can get it
just remember for twenty seconds its your time
next
same faces
different places
next
please say my number
i’ve put in my time
now is the time to shine
next
i feel this is the one
who won?
no one

ode to the freelancer

2005-11-09T17:54:00.000-08:00

Ode to the freelancer:
the freelancer is a symphonic politician.
never be late
never mess up
never say no
don’t stick out
blend
what to do in the summer?
blend do not make r i p p l e s
always be nice
wear black maybe they won’t see you
blend blend blend
always drop everything to do their job
don’t you know their orchestra is the best?
always follow up with a thank you to
the contractor
the conductor
the 10th viola.
always follow up with a thank you
i just wanna make music from my heart
oh well your out of fashion
next
always follow up with a thank you
thank you

little poem

2005-11-09T17:52:00.000-08:00

I. kampf
MUSIC is
not
and should
not be {confined}
to the everyday
mundane boring world.
MUSIC dies in the 9-5 mindframe.
as artists we seek more then that. as artist we need more then that
as artists we free our selves and those who will l i s t e n
from the everyday
grind
everyday.
constant vigilance against the norm.
constant dependence on the norm
patiently pensive till
the paycheck
once again
saves us
from ourselves

Intro

2005-11-09T17:29:00.000-08:00

i start my life as a blogger stating the obviuous fact that
" i am not nor ever claim to be a writer."

i finally gave into the blogg trend because i think it might be a nice way to keep in touch with old friends and perhapps to meet new ones.

so my first thought is that if America is to catch up with the rest of the modern world we must have either have tea time or nap time besides lunch. I am by far more productive when I stop for even 15 minuets. the smokers have the right idea of taking little breaks. i need to learn how to take a nonsmoking "smoke break." it must be my mid west roots coming out in me but i have a hard time---just stopping. but i think it would be better for our health in a big way if America learns how to do this. and use some of your holiday time. it'll build up again i promise.